I find it strange, i find it all strange.

People argue that characters that they play have responses to certain situations or something another character has said. That they will play out these responses because otherwise it would be metagaming (playing out of character for your own benefit).

I find it strange because like people I see characters as malleable things, capable of changing over time and even responding differently to a similar situation everytime.

I also see positive sides to this metagaming but for other peoples benefits. It seems in the IOD the Low MC versus High MC has reared its ugly head again regards to national plot. I personally think that most people go out of their way to accomodate new players sometimes even to their own detriment, I know personally I have. I have spent entire games bringing entire clutches of new people in game into the eye of the storm. I have even given away a life boon to get a new player some involvement in said eye of the storm. It still seems however I am the villain and I am categorised by my High MC.

This is not a depressing post about the game or IOD. Its just further supporting what I originally thought, that there are some people who roleplay who are in it for themselves. So introverted that it is only their own enjoyment that matters, to hell with other people an their enjoyment, only mine matters.

I am sure it was a storytelling game we are all involved with. This includes the storytellers who also have to get some measure of enjoyment from the game no matter how much some people believe they are only there to serve the whims of the players.

Here endeth the whingeth

...for muscle! Fat in my legs is dissapearing and being replaced with muscle. This is a big hurrah for me, now if I could only get that to move further up my body.

This does mean that the running I have been doing is paying off.

Stargate Universe, loving it.

Batman, Arkham Asylum, truly brilliant.

Warhammer, a lot of fun that I have missed out on.

Altogether today has been a good day (is considering cambridge this weekend in replacement of the scottish regional.)

Damn the enviroment and global warming. I have discovered where the draft is coming from in my room. Unfortunately it travels from the window and under my desk where my feet are. They have been feeling cold all day while I work on my essay.

So now the portable fan heater is under my desk, the fish can die from drought because my feet are now warm.

I am the Time Lord victorious!

Hurrah for the phone call I received today. It seems the phone interview I had was successful and I am being put forward for the third stage of interviews. Got a selection day in January or February, they will let me know sometime closer to the day they say. Its been a long process since applying in June this year.

In less good news the bank is doing funny things with me like charging me twice for insurance I have on my possessions. On top of this cause my student loan has been going into my original account they wont mess with it until they see evidence that it is a student account, sigh.

I seem to be my own worst critic. Whether its painting models, being at work or especially when writing essays. For some reason I just dislike my own work, constantly reading over and over again until I eventually scrap the essay an start again. Just putting the finishing an essay due in Wednesday. About 2300 words but could do with more but today I am unhappy with it. So much so I have decided to scrap an start again (is mad). Must be the reason why I keep getting 70+ marks on them but it doesn't help the stress meter one bit.

As an aside I am looking to replace all my icons for LJ (as some are more than three years old) Any suggestions, comments, criticisms and jokes at my expense are welcomed :-)

Also hurrah for Greece.

Being old and unsure of what you want has its advantages.

My Christmas gift this year will be one week in Greece next Summer. That makes one very happy. I think its a place called *cough*

It was alright, it will be a lot better when Moffat takes over. The last 10 minutes was the best part of the episode.

Hurrah for dark episodes.

Two and a half hours to go until its on BBC One.

Strangely excited about this Doctor Who special, especially if Lee Evans isnt in it.

Probably one of the best Lost games I have ever been to. I was pleasantly surprised. Hopefully it keeps on being as good as it was.

Of all the things I forget that today was payday, pleasant surprise when I am sorting out the bills that have come in. It also seems I got more money than expected, thank god for that promotion.

They gave me a new xbox instead which arrived today. This makes me chuckle considering mine was a dodgy second hand one in the first place.

Its a drama on 4 on demand. I recommend you watch it. Its very thought provoking.

Maybe its just a bad day an its the end of the first day of my new diet but its something thats been steadily increasing in my mind. I am not sure that University is working for me. Maybe its just because I miss having a full time job, guaranteed money coming in every month and the possibility of actually travelling places without planning months ahead.

I think today I am just in a funk and still a little sour by being woken up by a job rejection for one I really wanted.

So I didn't get the job.

At least I got feedback aka my interview was perfect and I was a perfect candidate but I got beaten to it by someone who was more familiar to the staff already working there.

That gets me so angry I cannot express in words. To me it became a matter of luck an mine dried up.

One consolation is I am still being considered for a management position and the manager is going to make recommendations on my behalf. This however still pisses me off because it means remaining and McDonalds.

I wish for once my plans would go exactly how I wanted rather than keep on changing them to fit every piece of shit that falls on the path on the way.

Well its arrived at the service centre in Germany so lets hope that means a speedy fix and a speedy return back to the mother country.

...an you won't attract the worm

Order of the Stick has a Dune comic!

As an aside just had an interview. I think it went really well and I have previous experience in the field. Now all I hope is that I get picked over whoever else applied for the job. Just need to wait one hellish week until I know exactly.

One sucky thing is this thing I picked up in Peterborough while down with the family. At first I thought it was a cold or a manflu thing. It seems however that it must be a hybrid of manflu, designed specifically to make me feel like poo on a stick.

The only consistant symptom has been a head cold which has given me a constant headache for four days straight now. Other bits include setting up shop in my throat causing me to lose my voice for a day. Moving into my chest causing me to splutter and wheeze an in one hilarious moment throw up from repeated coughing.

Trying to get to sleep now after being at work. For hilarity I am wrapped up snug in my bed but with a wooly hat on in an attempt to sweat this bugger out if needs be. Thats a thought must get a drink, should stay hydrated.

Cold, cold go away come back....never ever ever again, die a horrible and miserable death prefably with lungs full of oil (has just watched Quantum of Solace)

Liam Neeson as Aslan, Eddie Izzard as Reepicheep and Will Poulter as Eustace, thats all I need to be tempted to see this film. Especially the person who is planned to play Eustace, he looks very similar to how I imagined him to be.

Should really see the other films as well as my knowledge is rusty of the Chronicles of Narnia. I read them when I was about 7 so its been a long time. I think this is the second to last book of the series, the last one being called the Last Battle (heavy on the racism, dark skinned men come to destroy Narnia)